Part 2: Dealing with Anxiety

Art. On the subject that I wanted badly to score well because it was the only subject I thought I was good at, ended up just horribly done. 

There was this male teacher that I had a crush on. (I see you judging me! Haha! Kidding) He was good-looking and he was my physical education teacher. 

Anyway, he was one of the teachers assigned to invigilate. 

I was trying to calm myself down from the start of the exam, taking deep breaths and pivoting my thoughts on how open and windy the hall was. But it wasn’t helping that when we started, he kept walking up and down the hallway next to my row of tables. 

I hate invigilators who do that. I understand the need to do so if it was a more serious subject like math but art? Art is an open subject, how do you even copy art? 

At one point, he even stopped pacing and looked at my freaking art piece. I was literally screaming inside wanting to take flight. I badly wanted to get out of the exam hall and just end the examination. I was sweating so much, it was just uncomfortable throughout.  

Art examinations were 3 hours long, if I’m not mistaken. And that 3 hours felt endless. I could no longer think about details and it wasn’t even the piece I had in mind. 

Well, those were 2 of the worst situations I could remember back in my schooling days. 

As I ventured into the working world, I still do get random outbreaks even when I’m alone or with someone I’m very close with (like even with family members) I’m trying to find out if stomach rumbling could be one of the signs of stress. Cause when I’m anxious, my stomach do tend to growl quite loudly. 

Like any other person I would internalise that as ‘oh, I’m hungry and I need food’ but sometimes even getting a bite of something to fill up my stomach temporarily would not help for that long. 

That’s that for now, I do hope I get more helpful information or solutions that could help. 

Till my next post, toodles!